末日的初探

末日的初探，末日的旋律，但要到達那塊樂土，先要感受人的喜怒哀樂。
不知他們覺得人類還有希望嗎？
只知他們的音樂底子打得很深，又或者他們無時無刻的創作狀態都是有毒品和美酒相伴。
完全不知如何解讀 Radiohead.

自我閹割三部曲

真可謂修身，齊家，治國平天下。

從自己門口，到省，國家，世界出發。

欲練神功，必先自宮。

官用簡體殘字，毒我香港城邦

推普機出沒注意

華人與狗不得內進

 

源。完。緣

Science, Oxford University chemist Professor Peter Atkins says, has all the evidence it needs that the universe is "entirely without purpose": you are born an intelligent animal with no soul or spirit and there is nothing left alive after the body has died.

"I think that science exposes the wonder of the world as it is. You don't need fantasies to build that sense of wonder. Science is true glory, whereas religion is fabricated glory."

The religious notions of soul and spirit, of life everlasting and the final judgement, are nothing more, he says, than a "fantasy".

"I'm quite happy for people to take false comfort, but you've got to realize it's false comfort," he says.

http://news.bbc.co.uk/today/hi/today/newsid_9410000/9410486.stm



But can civilisation accept this and run culture around such "false comfort", can we accept that humanity has based most, if not all, it's existence on "false comfort" until the recent century?

How can we brace ourselves in this bleak and dark tunnel of reality where we are increasingly certain there is no light at the end of the tunnel? We will most likely perish, like all beings, and not leave a single trace behind.

早晨全餐

對不起，不愛你

只要我一息尚存 也要忘了您。

已經有李家仁了。。。。。。

請自重。

Isn't this amazing?:-|

"In Washington DC , at a Metro Station, on a cold January morning in 2007, a man with a violin played six Bach pieces for about 45 minutes. During that time, approximately 2000 people went through the station, most of them on their way to work.


After about four minutes, a middle-aged man noticed that there was a musician playing. He slowed his pace and stopped for a few seconds, and then he hurried on to meet his schedule.

About four minutes later, the violinist received his first dollar. A woman threw money in the hat and, without stopping, continued to walk.

At six minutes, a young man leaned against the wall to listen to him, then looked at his watch and started to walk again.

At ten minutes, a three-year old boy stopped, but his mother tugged him along hurriedly. The kid stopped to look at the violinist again, but the mother pushed hard and the child continued to walk, turning his head the whole time. This action was repeated by several other children, but every parent - without exception - forced their children to move on quickly.

At forty-five minutes: The musician played continuously. Only six people stopped and listened for a short while. About twenty gave money but continued to walk at their normal pace. The man collected a total of $32.

After one hour:

He finished playing and silence took over. No one noticed and no one applauded. There was no recognition at all.

No one knew this, but the violinist was Joshua Bell, one of the greatest musicians in the world. He played one of the most intricate pieces ever written, with a violin worth $3.5 million dollars. Two days before, Joshua Bell sold-out a theater in Boston where the seats averaged $100 each to sit and listen to him play the same music.

This is a true story. Joshua Bell, playing incognito in the D.C. Metro Station, was organized by the Washington Post as part of a social experiment about perception, taste and people’s priorities.

This experiment raised several questions:

In a common-place environment, at an inappropriate hour, do we perceive beauty?

If so, do we stop to appreciate it?

Do we recognize talent in an unexpected context?

One possible conclusion reached from this experiment could be this:

If we do not have a moment to stop and listen to one of the best musicians in the world, playing some of the finest music ever written, with one of the most beautiful instruments ever made…

How many other things are we missing as we rush through life?"


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Five lessons learned from living in Paris

"They never sat in front of the television with a box of pizza and zoned out, never."

"Being OK with silence is important. I think a lot of people are afraid of silence in conversations"

"They just observed these formal protocols and manners and etiquette were very important to them."

"They used their best china and their best crystal on a regular basis. ... They used the nicest things that they had on a daily basis and it elevated every experience that we had."

---------------------------Jennifer L. Scott

看完賽德克巴萊

活在一個沒有根的小島是一件很辛苦的事。

更辛苦的是看見很多這個小島上的人以沒有根為榮，以遺忘歷史為傲。

最辛苦是很多很多島上的人自認為自己活在文明都市之中。

傷心啊，這窮得只有錢，但沒有夢的小島。

Joyeux Noël

Green Lego Effiel Tower Tree!!

<逍遙遊> 余光中

在〈逍遙遊〉、〈鬼雨〉一類的作品裏，我倒當真想在中國文字的風爐中，煉出一顆丹來。在這一類作品裏，我嘗試把中國的文字壓縮，搥扁，拉長，磨利，把它拆開又拼攏，折來且疊去，為了試驗它的速度、密度和彈性。我的理想是要讓中國的文字，在變化各殊的句法中，交響成一個大樂隊，而作家的筆應該一揮百應，如交響樂的指揮杖。

散文有如地球，詩有如月亮：月球被地球所吸引，繞地球旋轉，成為衞星，但地球也不能把月球吸得更近，力的平衡便長此維持；另一方面，月球對地球的吸引力，也形成了海潮。

散文可以向詩學一點生動的意象，活潑的節奏，和虛實相濟的藝術，然而散文畢竟非詩。旗可以迎風而舞，卻不可隨風而去，更不能變成風。把散文寫成詩，正如把詩寫成散文，都不是好事。

children SHOULD ?

"It is a modern misconception that children prefer (or SHOULD be capable of) sitting still rather than running around, or that children SHOULD be more interested in doing their homework rather than daydreaming, or that children SHOULD be able to focus their attention, rather than getting curious about everything and anything."

-----------CYL

Somewhere in between

"No, I'm neither one. I'm somewhere in between. That 'somewhere in between' they can't understand." Svetlana Alliluyeva (Lana Peters).

No, Lana, it's not hard to understand, we are all somewhere in between.

勇氣

International Pretentious City

走在浮華、荒謬、自我形象膨脹的時代中心，並承番外南蠻嘈雜、五光十色、大紫大紅的優秀傳統，繼續為您提供擦鞋服務。

人離鄉賤，物離鄉貴。

這移民來的國際都市，只有丁點農作物的….文化….大都會…

人應該如何與天空、大地、家庭共處?

千金散盡

PCM10

11Pro

HD800

Gunnar

給我和我二十出頭的朋友們：

陳奐仁 安全感

我乾脆死了吧　奮鬥為什麼　活著不是辦法　
牛頭馬面來啦　在肚皮上用刀畫個叉
誰說　男人不可吸脂減胖　沒人去健身房　
都上了物質的當　脂肪跟著金融通貨膨脹

你不要再埋怨自己不好　女朋友勸我
也不要再跟誰比較　誰比誰糟
只需要知道我會對你好　無論多艱難
我不夠安全感　對甚麼都只會不滿
你幹嗎還不閃

我可以哭了嗎　我不夠自大　我不是在撒嬌
一切都是為你　說的太清高
說需要空間　你又脾氣暴躁
你的白馬王子只想年薪更高
什麼時候才能輪到我開法拉利炒股票
鈔票　亂拋也拋不掉我煩惱
還在心中纏繞　買金銀珠寶
我收入越高　開銷也跟著高　我睡不著

你不要再埋怨自己不好　女朋友勸我
也不要再跟誰比較　誰比誰糟
只需要知道我會對你好　無論多艱難
我不夠安全感　對甚麼都只會不滿
你幹嗎還不閃

受夠了　這物質生活　受夠了　這無助生活
受夠了　這物質生活　受不了
受夠了　這物質生活

你不要再埋怨自己不好　女朋友勸我
也不要再跟誰比較　誰比誰糟
只需要知道我會對你好　無論多艱難
我不夠安全感　對甚麼都只會不滿
你幹嗎還不閃

受夠了　這物質生活　受夠了　這無助生活
受夠了　這物質生活　受夠了　受不了這
受夠了　這物質生活　受夠了　這無助生活
受夠了　這物質生活　受夠了　受不了

To my students...

I ask myself this question the moment I open my mouth and "educate" you,

"Why am I educating you? Who said I have the right to teach you anything?"


原諒我們 我們都還在找

You are so much smarter than all of us, you just don't know it yet.

Humans never seize to fascinate me

" It's not the absence of information, but it's the presence of the wrong thought that's hard to clear”
 John Gabrieli MIT neuroscientist

New shoes

Hey, I put some new shoes on,

And suddenly everything is right,

I said, hey, I put some new shoes on and everybody's smiling,

It so inviting,

Oh, short on money,

But long on time,

Slowly strolling in the sweet sunshine,

And I'm running late,

And I dont need an excuse,

'cause I'm wearing my brand new shoes.

Floresheim (est. 1892)
Antoni
Style: 77075-101
Upper : Baby Calf Leather
Lining : Full Leather
LiningFeatures : - Lace Up w/Cap Toe PerforationSize: 39 - 45 W Color: Black

....sigh... I hope they ate the calf...

Literates of the past, be patient, the future is still yours.
Shoulders of giants, keep growing, the ascend continues.
Within the cave, echoes strike me clearer than the muffling wilderness.
The greatest story ever told is our civilisation afterall.

This could be useful one day =)

http://www.studentsfirst.org/

Random thought of the day

Imagine if the government gave holidays to people on their birthdays.

So if it was your birthday, you automatically get a day off on that day.

To whom it may concern

If you are an educator and do not wish to learn new things or revisit wisdoms from the past, then you should not be teaching.

Teaching is about passionately delivering materials to learners and inspire them to dream.

If you don't dream, stop making our next generation not dream as well.

P.S. Laughing at your students is different from laughing with your students. Stop insulting them because you have 'authority' over them. Stop insulting them and you will stop insulting yourself.

Are you ready to be a parent, a teacher, a human being?

The responsibility is yours and mine.

Children see, Children do.

For people who talk too much (a.k.a Architects & Teachers)

 ペチャクチャ!

20 frequently asked questions about PechaKucha 20x20.

01. What is PechaKucha 20x20 ?


PechaKucha 20x20 is a simple presentation format where you show 20 images, each for 20 seconds. The images forward automatically and you talk along to the images.

02. Who invented the format ?

The presentation format was devised by Astrid Klein and Mark Dytham of Klein Dytham architecture. The first PechaKucha Night was held in Tokyo in their gallery, lounge, bar, club, creative kitchen SuperDeluxe in February 2003 Klein Dytham architecture still organize and support the global PechaKucha Night network and organise PechaKucha Night Tokyo.

03. Why invent this format ?

Because architects talk too much! Give a microphone and some images to an architect - or most creative people for that matter - and they'll go on forever! Give powerpoint to anyone else and they have the same problem.

04. What are PechaKucha Nights ?

PechaKucha Nights are informal and fun gatherings where creative people get together and share their ideas, works, thoughts, holiday snaps - just about anything really, in the PechaKucha 20x20 format.

05. Why have PechaKucha Nights gone viral globally ?

With PechaKucha Nights now happening in over 230 cities around the world we have discovered that most cities - not just Tokyo have virtually no public spaces where people can show and share their work in relaxed way. If you have just graduated from college and finished your first project in the real world - where can you show it? It probably won't get into a magazine, you don't have enough photos for a gallery show or a lecture - but PechaKucha 20x20 is the perfect platform to show and share your work.

06. Where are PechaKucha Nights held ?

PechaKucha Nights are mostly held in fun spaces with a bar similar to the home of PechaKucha Night - SuperDeluxe - which is a space for 'thinking and drinking'. To date PechaKucha Nights have been held in bars, restaurants, clubs, beer gardens, homes, studios, universities, churches, prisons (disused), beaches, swimming pools even a quary!

07. Who can present ?

Anyone can present - this is the beauty of PechaKucha Nights. Astrid's daughter presented when she was 5 (about her artwork ;- ) and Mark's mother presented when she was 69 (about her elaborate wedding cake creations).

08. What can people present?

The key to a great presentation is to present something you love. Most people use PechaKucha Night to present their latest creative projects or work. Some people share their passion and show their prized collections of Nana Mouskuri records, other share photos of their latest site visit to a construction site or their recent holiday snaps. We always recommend people go and see a PechaKucha Night before they apply to present to get a good feel of what it is all about.

09. What makes a good PechaKucha?

Good PechaKucha presentation are the ones that uncover the unexpected, unexpected talent, unexpected ideas. Some PechaKuchas tell great stories about a project or a trip. Some are incredibly personal, some are incredibly funny, but all are very different making each PechaKucha Night like 'a box of chocolates'.

11. Who runs PechaKucha Nights?

Each PechaKucha Night is run by a city organizer. Well, they are more like stewards really who look after the PechaKucha spirit in each city. All PKN organizers must have a regular day job and they run PechaKucha Nights only for the inspiration, love and fun of it. They mostly come from the creative fields. The PKN organizer is usually supported by a big team of volunteers in putting on a PechaKucha Night and the more helping hands come together the better. The global PechaKucha Network is organized and supported by Klein Dytham architecture.

12. How can I run a PechaKucha Night?

We have never asked anyone to run a PechaKucha Night, people ask us. We only planned this as a one off event, people asked to run it again - and again - and we were 3 years and 30 events into it, just in Tokyo, before people started thinking it would be cool to have one in their city. Check to see if there is one in your city first - if not and you think you have what it takes to run one in your city get in read the 'start one in your city' section.

13. What's a PechaKucha Night Handshake Agreement?

We have a very simple Handshake agreement with each city basically to ensure there is only one event series per city and people are not treading in one another toes or pulling the rug out from under there feet. PechaKucha Nights take quite a bit of organizing and the more networks the better so we think it is better for cities to focus on one event. We run an event every month in Tokyo and believe us it is quite an undertaking! The handshake agreements are free, and renewed each year. Cities must organize a minimum of 4 events a year to qualify as an active city.

14. Why is PechaKucha Night trademarked?

PechaKucha Night is trademarked to protect all the effort and hard work of our PKN city organizers and network. PechaKucha Night is for CONTENT and not profit.

15. Why are we setting up a global foundation?

PechaKucha was devised and by Astrid Klein and Mark Dytham and their office Klein Dytham architecture has supported the movement and global network for the past 7 years covering all cost for staff and web development. To keep the project sustainable and viable going forward as the network expands we are setting up a foundation. The foundation will also support creative projects such as the Mark Hoekstra PechaKucha Night Award.

16. Can I use the the PechaKucha 20x20 format at school or in the office?

Sure - it is a great format for project reviews and presentations at schools or internal presentations in offices. We are setting up PechaKucha Learning and PechaKucha Corporate programs (????) We also license the event format for Events and Conferences, please check out PechaKucha Event for more details.

17. Is PechaKucha Night like TED?

Many people have said - “oh so you're like a local TED!” A very nice complement but not quite right! TED is brilliant but very different to PechaKucha. TED is top down, PechaKucha is bottom up! Deanne the hooper, Astrid daughter or Marks mum could not present at TED - but they had awesome stories and creativity to at recent PechaKucha's

18. Was PechaKucha the first format like this?

That's a good question. We have all heard of elevator pitches, a presentation so short you could pitch it to someone in an elevator, well 20 seconds x 20 is a bit longer than that, but the idea is the same short concise presentations. As far as we know PechaKucha was the first to put a limit on the number or images, number of seconds - and the all important auto forward. No 'next slide' or 'go back one please' at PechaKucha Nights. There have been several, rather sly - and not so sly imitators including Talk20 and Ignite - but PechaKucha was there first, seven years ago!

19. Is PechaKucha Night a social network?

No because there is nothing social about social networks, get out from behind your screen and get to a live event, with real people, real communication, real beer and real creative fun.

20. What's next for PechaKucha 20x20?

We have launched version 4.0 of the website. For press enquiries and further information, please get in touch!

....Guess what I just bought?

http://cyborggaming.com/prod/rat5.htm

http://cyborggaming.com/prod/v7keyboard.htm

These weren't impulsive buys, it's in preparation for......

the Blizzard that will hit us (perhaps not too) soon....

Life's lesson

Dalai Lama said, "sleep is the best meditation".

Imagine telling that to my students at school.

Old Pulteney single malt 21 year old

The whisky is matured in American oak casks and bottled at the Pulteney distillery in Wick, Caithness.

"I can resist everything except temptation."
Oscar Wilde, Lady Windermere's Fan.

I miss the smell, taste, sound and flavour of Scotland, not too much the weather though.

Still Life in Oil

 

Still Life in Oil

2011

Daniel Beltra

This beautiful but distressing image earned photographer Daniel Beltra from Spain the prestigious title of 2011 Veolia Environnement Wildlife Photographer of the Year.

The photograph, named Still Life in Oil, shows eight brown pelicans smothered in oil from the Deepwater Horizon spill.


http://www.bbc.co.uk/nature/15359263

Still waiting

Can't believed I missed this when I was studying at Edinburgh!!

I hope they do the play where nothing happens twice again.

No man is an island.

Devotions upon Emergent Occasions (1624)

Meditation XVII

No man is an Iland, intire of it selfe; every man is a peece of the Continent, a part of the maine; if a Clod bee washed away by the Sea, Europe is the lesse, as well as if a Promontorie were, as well as if a Mannor of thy friends or of thine owne were; any mans death diminishes me, because I am involved in Mankinde;
And therefore never send to know for whom the bell tolls;
It tolls for thee.


John Donne (1572-1631)

Half or full marathon, that's the question.

I asked an experienced runner, "whether I should do half or full marathon in the spring of 2012..."

and I was told.......

"it depends..


If you want to 'have an experience of what it would feel like' to run a marathon without much preparation, then by all means, try to run the full length, I think it is possible that you will finish it in 5 hours or so but the chance is slim.

If you want to one day really enjoy the serious challenge of the marathon, then the above is not the way to go about it.

At your age, you are face with the following:

1) If you seriously train for the marathon, you need at least 1 year of devotion (yes, the sacrifices and the required discipline is part of the challenge and reason for doing the marathon)

2) At your age, if you seriously train for the marathon for a year, you will loose some of your natural speed, that means that you will put a limit on how fast you can run, long or short, for the rest of your life because you will be converting some of your 'speed' muscle into 'endurance' muscle and the conversion is not reversible.

3) So the thing to do at your age, is to salvage as much of that natural speed you have, get them developed... as well as doing things to explore your endurance possibilities. This way, you will be able to run a good marathon in two or three years AND from that point on, you will be able to improve your marathon performance until you reach 40 or 41 years of age.

So I would say that you try to devote your time into training seriously for a good 10K performance and then enter some 10k race. With such base strength, you should be able to do either the 10K or the half come standard charter time. If this 'training for 10K' turns out to be bearable for you, and if you can devote yourself into continuing the lifestyle for another year, then you should be able to finish a marathon in 2013 as an experience... But your serious marathon should not happen until at least you are 29 years old."
 
----------------------- A.H.
 
so..... 10k it is....... let's see if there's space left.

與英文老師共勉之

一.「雖之夷狄，不可棄也。」

原句：樊遲問仁。
子曰：「居處恭，執事敬，與人忠。雖之夷狄，不可棄也。」


二.「有教無類。」

上自君臣大夫，下至村夫俗人，不論老少賢愚，都要维持「有教無類」的心。

新聞精神

地鐵,巴士一車報紙內容可以用四個字來總括:

隱善揚惡。

My guitar teacher

He not only teaches me how to play music from different genres,
he enables me to reach into a musician's brain and see what he/she is thinking and how that relates to the musical scene of yesterday, today and tomorrow.

What remains is my 10,000 hours of practice. If I practice 2 hours everyday for the whole year, that is 13.70 years in the making, yay!

被物誘了....

New addition in July:

(In ascending order of importance)

1. Shangri-La Hotel x Moleskin Notebook

2. Google G1

3. Habit of swimming

4. 韋惠英編著 -《少就是多淺入深出--青田陽光英語綜合教學法實踐與反思》

5. 海星 (自然學校籌辦人) -《方手自然教出好孩子》

6. Classical guitar 

7. Ultimate Ears TripleFi 10 Noise-Isolating Earphones

8. G-Shock G7900 (Black)
9. James Blunt Concert Tickets x 2

10. Ipod Nano 16 GB

11. Barry Kalb - You Can Write Better English

12. 劉若英 -《我的不完美 》

13. Panasonic Lumix DMC-TS3

14. Acer Aspire One

OR

(In ascending order of current market price of each item)

1. Barry Kalb - You Can Write Better English
2. 海星 (自然學校籌辦人) -《方手自然教出好孩子》
3. 劉若英 -《我的不完美 》 
4. 韋惠英編著 -《少就是多淺入深出--青田陽光英語綜合教學法實踐與反思》 
5. Shangri-La Hotel x Moleskin Notebook
6. Classical guitar
7. G-Shock G7900 (Black)
8. Ipod Nano 16 GB 
9. James Blunt Concert Tickets x 2
10. Google G1
11. Ultimate Ears TripleFi 10 Noise-Isolating Earphones
12. Panasonic Lumix DMC-TS3
13. Acer Aspire One
14. Habit of swimming ($20/session, but for life)

*all the said items, with the exception of books and watch, were all gifts from family and friends, thanks for enriching my life =)

I feel like one of those people in Hong Kong Tourist Board's colourful commercial with a lot of shopping bags and the commentator preaching - 'Hong Kong is an international finance centre / shopping paradise'

老生常談，但在這都市卻歷久常新，長命百歲

不被物誘

子日：士志於道，而恥惡衣惡食者，未足與議也。
一個人如果真正立志於修道，這個「修道」不是出家當和尚、雷神仙的道，而是儒家那個「道」，也就是以出世離塵的精神做人世救人的事業。
一個人如果志於這個道，而討厭物質環境艱苦的話，怕自己穿壞衣服，怕自己沒有好的吃；換句話說，立志於修道的人而貧圖享受，就沒什麼可談的了。因為他的心志已經被物質的慾望分佔了。
孔子這句話是說，一個人的意志，會被物質環境引誘、轉移的話，無法和他談學問、談道。

— — — — — — 南懷瑾

一和零之間

存在，真的很虛無。
開了是一，關了是零。
但這一和零之間竟藴藏着無限的可能性。
有時，無限的可能性，比甚麼都沒有，更可怕。
奇怪，原本是想慶祝我們一週年。

有人問她

很多人問我的女朋友是一個怎樣的人，我除了傻笑，就是有點支吾以對。
最常的即時反應是：「她是一個好人。」，至於怎麼好，我想了很久都想不到一個由淺入深的答案。今天終於找到了。
她是一個有傳統東方賢淑女性特質，身懷古風，但又會對西方個人主義和自省反思有所體會的人。再簡單一點來說，她像是一個金庸小說裡面的儀琳小師父，非禮勿視，非禮勿聽，非禮勿言，非禮勿動。唯一不能不動的，可能是她的心。

最近在思考的句子。

「怕悶            





                                                                                                                                      所以留白。」

Auld Lang Syne

To the sunny cities of this world,

You have no idea.

Love,
From Scotland

P.S. They are called liquid sunshine.

碰巧

愛上一個愛我的人，
就如我剛好是我媽媽的孩子，
就這麼簡單。

A wee while

During a major renovation in the new flat, I was told by the foreman, not to worry about the messed up toilet while we are working on the kitchen.

He said, 'don't cross the bridge until you get to it.'

Maybe life is just the same.
When you get to the end of it, you'll know where to put your foot down.

And when you do, the 'water under the bridge' will take care of things.
We are, after all, stardusts that linger here for a wee while.

往事

想不到，我早學會了，
學會了忘掉。
年少無知，對不起。

謝謝妳，讓我聽到了後來。

也謝謝你們，今日仍與我共行的友人。

Another encounter

Was walking down the road on my way to supermarket, and on came three pigeons flying quite low then "BOOM!". The pigeons rammed their heads onto a glass panel while the third missed it just by inches. One fell on the floor and died immediately, the other struggled on for a few minutes and then died. Then fresh red blood started gushing out of their eyes and beak.

Funny how animals, people die everyday and you can feel so distant about it, but when you actually see one dying right in front of you, it still send shocks your system a lot. I don't know how we can justify ourselves in killing other animals to fill our stomach, but as it occurs, we do that everyday and we barely ever see the poor creature being killed.

It's a strange world we live in.

Interesting encounter

I went downstairs to get some cash from the machine.
Lady came up to me, trying to hand me a flier and asked, 'Do you go to church?'
'No.......' (come on cash, come out....)
'Jesus loves you!'

....... 'Thank you.'

Somebody whose dead 2000 years ago loves me?
Great, thanks, to be honest, I felt really flattered.

Thought of the day

Be a practical romantic, let the dreams come true.

難喔

自己以為老實，不行！
那正是不老實，自以為老實就是不老實。
什麼是老實人？
道理真正明白，一個妄念都沒有，才叫老實！

－－－－－淨空法师

Thoughts on a deathbed

Smiles & Regrets

找工作

富貴非吾願，帝鄉不可期。懷良辰以孤往，或植杖而耘耔。

想六四

'It's an easy question, do you want or not want America to win in Iraq,' asks Bill O' Reilly.
'It's not easy for me because I'm thoughtful,' answers David Letterman.


「悶聲發大財，這句話是最好的。」江澤民

「不要在中間開車，否則你會被兩邊的車撞壞的。」戴卓爾夫人

歷史還沒訂下誰對誰錯的簡單論調，只能說毋忘六四天安門。

1898,1912,1919,1949,1966,1984,1989,1997...2046.
區區小島，面對歷史洪流，五十年不變？中英的玩笑也開太大了吧。
香港，曾是一個無名的小漁村，水深港闊，能填就填，平靜的海面現在則充滿暗涌。
歷史應該不會記得我們是一個窮得只有錢的城市吧。

以前沒空說話，未來怕話不能說。
五十年的瘋癲，不是那麼難看穿吧。

不錯之錯

不讀不錯，不寫不錯，不問不錯，不聞不錯。
一錯再錯，勇於認錯，錯完不錯，才是不錯。

飲茶

剛剛喝了零三孟宋青餅＋普洱茶磚*。

一二泡：熟餅首當其衝，青餅襯托留後。色為淺湯，初秋葉黃。
三四泡：熟的面浮，青有內涵。味如簿煙，微霞日落。
五六泡：老幼共聚，談笑風生。普洱陳說，十年往事。
七泡後：色有數段，變化幾許互動，筆墨不能形容的感動。

茶身入心，是為茶醉。

不過，還沒到師父泡了讓我掉眼淚的茶。
功力未到，火喉未夠，但今有此進境，感激萬分。
望君有日共享， 實人生一大樂事。

*年份不詳，要再核實考究。

望天

無論你有多高，

我們也是一齊站在巨人的肩上，在井底看洞裏的壁畫。

人類，有往前站過一點點嗎？

錯過世界末日的我，只能與你一起空杯自醉。

後記：奇怪，對宇宙我充滿懷疑，對妳，我卻深信不疑。

*「你」指天空，萬物。
**「妳」請找個好位置，對號入坐吧。

(男)人腦

抱一個
親十次
幹百回
想千遍

How very remote and still within a distance,the museums we saw, the hills we hiked.
The way your hair fell, the hesitant smile which slowly found its confidence.
I know you changed into your night dress just so we could walk together to the bus station one last time.
I wish you all the best in the many beauties that lie ahead,
Sorry I made you frown and cry, at least we met in the dreams of our own.

緣份，不一定要在這一生注定的。

「很簡單的，就這樣愛上了妳。」

我會望著妳，這樣告訴我們的孩子。

中國茶道的基本精神

純：茶性之純正，茶主之純心，化茶友之淨純。

雅：沏茶之細致，身韵之優美，茶局之典雅。

禮：感恩於自然，敬重於茶農，誠待於茶客。

和：是人、茶與自然的和諧，屬於心靈之愛。

自論說

人生最重要的是要提升靈性。
最有價值的一生，就是一生得到真實的圓滿。

放下一定要看破，知道這個世界什麼都是假的，没有一樣是真的，你才會放下。
放不下，就是把這個都看作是真的，錯了！

－－－－淨空法師

所以說看山還是山，看水還是水。

真的，人世間都是一樣，拿在手裏的，除了空氣，只不過是空氣的另外一種說法，一切都在步向腐爛，滅亡，消失。
但，那也只是空氣的一種說法，是人用自己生命作為瞭解世界的平台，看見時間往前走的不變定律。

那要如何在這虛無裡面，安身立命？

我可以做的，只是當一個秒針上的點，用我所能，所明，去感受時間的跳動。
不是說旁觀者清嘛，可惜，我又身在其中，真剪不斷，理還亂。
還好，我找到了我的偶像。

“唯上智與下愚不移。”這兩種人好教。
我們現在這些人不老實，上不上、下不下，這是非常非常困難。
像我們這些人麻煩就大了，釋迦牟尼佛四十九年講經說教，是為我們，最難度的這些人。
所以，一定要自己细心反省自己是什麼樣的根性。
如果真是個老實人，可以不要聽經，不要看錄像帶，一句阿彌陀佛念到底，你的成就决不在鍋漏匠之下，那是值得人尊敬的、值得人讚賞的。能不能做到？
真的萬缘放下了，一個妄念都沒有了，能成功。

－－－－淨空法師

阿彌陀佛，
下愚，我來也。

Never celebrate someone's death?

No man is an island,
Entire of itself.
Each is a piece of the continent,
A part of the main.
If a clod be washed away by the sea,
Europe is the less.
As well as if a promontory were.
As well as if a manor of thine own
Or of thine friend's were.
Each man's death diminishes me,
For I am involved in mankind.
Therefore, send not to know
For whom the bell tolls,
It tolls for thee.

John Donne
Meditation 17
Devotions upon Emergent Occasions
1624

...but we still do and I guess the living suffers the burden more than the dead.

學與識

「凡是一字，當明六義：一此字如何寫，二此字如何讀，三此字如何講，四此字為何如此寫，五此字為何如此讀，六此字為何如此講。此六義有一不明，不得云識此字。」
柳曾符先生寫文章說，自己姓柳，而不識柳字，蓋做不到此六義也。
他當老師，公告學生說：「有不識之字，勿問吾，我不識字。」

沒關係，柳先生，我也不識字。
哈哈
http://mpctbj.blogspot.com/2010/07/blog-post.html

繼續修行

世出世間法要曉得，都是福慧因果。福固然重要，慧更重要。有福沒有慧，享福的時候決定造作重罪，這是佛家講的「三世怨」。福享盡了，墮落在惡道裡面，要想出來那就不容易，不曉得要經過多少生、多少劫？

有慧沒有福，雖然日子過得很清苦、很艱難，但不造罪業。往往還有往生成佛的可能，因為他生活太苦了，他對這個世間厭倦，反而生起道心。由此可知，福報不是好事情，佛教導出家弟子要修福決定不享福，依舊過清苦的日子，要以苦為師，道理就在此地，怕你享福造罪業。

 

灾难怎么来的？邪知邪见变现出来的。我们今天人的思想行为对不起地球，破坏自然生态平衡，对不起它，它就得报复。灾难能不能化解？量子力学家告诉我们，可以，可能；佛法亦如是，也是这么说法。 只要我们改变心态，认识自然现象的真相，调整自己的心态，放弃贪嗔痴慢，“断一切恶、修一切善”，灾难就没有了。 这一切万物欢喜善法，我们把老祖宗的“孝悌忠信、礼义廉耻、仁爱和平”找回来，起心动念、言语造作都能与这个德行相应，社会和谐，灾难就没有了。为什么？境随心转。境是环境，我们的大环境——地球是我们的大环境，太空、无量无边的星系也是我们的大环境。

 

---------净空法师

給一位我不認識的同學

我知道妳的存在，是因為妳已經不存在的消息給轉了過來。
我不認識妳，但我明白，我也很傷心。
世事無常，活著不一定是福氣，但活著就是活著。
妳現在連替自己辯護的機會都沒了。

不過，我還是希望妳能找到一個屬於妳的地方。
這不是給妳的，是給妳身邊，愛妳，愛過妳，仍然愛妳的人。


《國峻不回來吃飯》黃春明

國峻，
我知道你不回來吃晚飯，
我就先吃了，
媽媽總是說等一下，
等久了，她就不吃了，
那包米吃了好久了，還是那麼多，
還多了一些象鼻蟲。

媽媽知道你不回來吃飯，她就不想燒飯了，
她和大同電鍋也都忘了，到底多少米要加多少水？
我到今天才知道，媽媽生下來就是為你燒飯的，
現在你不回來吃飯，媽媽什麼事都沒了，
媽媽什麼事都不想做，連吃飯也不想。

國峻，一年了，你都沒有回來吃飯

我在家炒過幾次米粉請你的好友
來了一些你的好友，但是袁哲生跟你一樣，他也不回家吃飯了

我們知道你不回來吃飯；
就沒有等你，
也故意不談你，
可是你的位子永遠在那裡。

原來如此

「三日不讀聖賢書，面目可憎」

早上不照鏡子算了。^_^

美中不足

美國國務卿希拉里表示中國企圖阻止歷史前進，但只能是徒勞無功，「他們做不到的，但他們在試圖盡可能久地維持下去。」

中國國務院副總理王岐山說：「真正了解中國並不容易，因為中國是一個文明古國，屬於東方文化。。。美國是世界第一的超級大國，而美國人民是非常單純的。」

簡單來說，中國買起了美國，
所以美國只能說：「我頂你個肺！」
中國只需回應：「你吹我唔脹！」
我確得美國有點偽君子，中國有點真小人。。。哈
希望大家不會開始爭練劈邪劍譜吧。
唉。。。甚麼時候，全人類面璧思過算啦。

中美對話談人權唇槍舌劍
希拉里﹕阻歷史徒勞無功 王岐山：中國不會發生革命

【明報專訊】中美第三輪戰略與經濟對話首日會談結束，雙方在人權問題上針鋒相對，美國總統奧巴馬在會見中國副總理王岐山和國務委員戴秉國時，對中國人權狀況表示關注。國務卿希拉里更罕見地對美國傳媒批評北京打壓人權、阻止歷史前進的做法是「徒勞無功」。國務院副總理王岐山則表示，阿拉伯世界的革命不會發生在中國。香港時間今日上午，中美雙方代表將共同會見記者。

白宮新聞稿說，奧巴馬在當地時間9日的會晤中提到中國人權狀況，並強調他支持言論和資訊流通自由，以及政治參與權利等普世價值。據中新社引述戴秉國 回應說，中國在人權領域取得了有目共睹的歷史性進展，中美雙方應在平等和相互尊重基礎上開展人權交流與對話，求同存異，妥善處理分歧。

最新一期《大西洋》（the Atlantic）月刊在中美對話之際刊出對國務卿希拉里的專訪，希拉里在專訪中形容中國的人權政策是「悲慘的」（deplorable），認為北京對於 阿拉伯世界的革命很「恐懼」，企圖阻止歷史前進，但只能是徒勞無功，「他們做不到的，但他們在試圖盡可能久地維持下去。」

王岐山在接受美國彭博電視台專訪時則稱，「我不認為像阿拉伯世界那樣的革命會發生在中國。」他說，美國傳媒向民眾呈現的是一個「有限的、扭曲」的中 國，「真正了解中國並不容易，因為中國是一個文明古國，屬於東方文化」，王岐山說，「美國是世界第一的超級大國，而美國人民是非常單純的。」


王岐山在經濟對話中呼籲美方明確落實對話成果的時間表和路線圖，包括切實放寬對中國高技術產品出口管制以及承認中國市場經濟地位。王岐山還呼籲美方公平對待中資企業赴美投資，避免經貿問題政治化，真正造福於兩國人民。

商務部部長陳德銘亦透露，中方在經濟對話中指美國限制對華高科技產品出口失去很多中國商機，其實是對美國企業不公正；美國還對2000多種中國產品 實行許可證管理，亦對中國企業不公正。他又稱，中國企業反映，美國的外國投資委員會的安全審查不公開、不透明，但當中方審查美國企業投資時，美方又指摘中 方不透明。中方希望美國能夠公正對待中國企業赴美投資，包括對中國的國有企業。

http://news.mingpao.com/20110511/caa1.htm

Le meilleur des mondes possibles

To you, it's faith;
To me, it's blind optimism.
We aren't that different, or are we?

是日遐想

我是透明的，只是你看不穿而已。

想。等。亂。靜。

人生最難的，還是一個靜字。
但要達到靜的境界，先要經歷很多很多。
欸，不就是生。老。病。死。嗎？
所以要做到生者能靜，真是要看修為啦。
好，毫不猶豫，睡覺去！

-------------------給不喜歡無賴的人

給自己的精讀

通便有點

「以有涯隨無涯」，不就是人生嗎？(1)
但原來殆矣非也。「桃李無言，下自成蹊。」原來是在比喻宇宙跟人生呢！(2,3)「隨」是因，「蹊」是果，「桃李」是終極的果。(4)呼天搶地，吟詩作對，狗屁一通的人類就是緣。(5)*牛頓有的果，我沒有，可以算有嗎？(6,7)
或者別人手握禁果，我也可沾祂一點光，說我也有看過人手握禁果的，
如果是真的，要讓我一點樂土啊。不然，誰也說不準誰握過甚麼東西呢？(8)
好，我就走沾光的便宜蹊，(9) 學我哥呼天地叫嚷一番：「你吹我唔脹！」 (10)呀~ 真舒暢，但還是有點。。。
但人總是要吃生果，沒辦法，只好當消化是樂趣。(11)
還好，男人的。。。不說了，應承了別人不說就是不說，(12)
反正觀自在菩薩，
阿門。 (13)*

(1).「以有涯隨無涯 」出自莊子的《養生主》，原文開句為「吾生也有涯，而知也無涯， 以有涯隨無涯，殆矣。」作者思考出世，入世的人生問題不果，反問句帶出他臨近放棄的邊緣。

(2).「桃李無言，下自成蹊。」出自辛棄疾的《一剪梅》。原詞為「多情山鳥不須啼，桃李無言，下自成蹊。」

(3). 喻體－暗喻：作者以桃李無言無語，但美麗的果實形態來比喻宇宙的寂靜神祕。路人受花果吸引使果樹下佈滿縱橫交錯的足跡，好比不同人因著不同態度和對事物瞭解的程度嘗試找尋人生的意義。

(4). 正所謂：「有因必有果，種善因，得善果， 種惡因，得惡果。」

     「隨」在「以有涯隨無涯」是找尋，探索的意思，可視為人以行動，思想來找尋。

     「蹊」在「桃李無言，下自成蹊。」是在找尋的路途上遺下的腳印，足跡和 證據。

     「桃李」便是比喻為像宇宙的那種具有神祕吸引力的事物，或可說成是真理的所在。

(5)*. 因緣際遇也是佛學內的概念，今生為人便是緣，士井之徒是緣，文人雅士也是緣。

(6). 牛頓手握的蘋果象徵他對大自然的好奇繼而提出的問題，正好反映作者也是為著好奇而寫下此篇文章。

(7).「我沒有，可以算有嗎？」其實內含禪機，是作者的提問：「沒有智慧的智慧，沒有好奇的好奇，可以算是一種智慧和好奇嗎？」

(8). 手握禁果便是得到了基督教裏的智慧果實，也就是被賦予了神的某種力量，包括自覺和思考的能力。作者活潑的用沾光來引進某哲學家的提問和結論：「直到現在，沒有人能證明神確實存在與否，我們如果選擇相信，然後真的有神存在，那便能早登天國， 我們如果選擇不相信， 然後真的有神存在， 那情怳便有點糟糕。但如果神不存在，那信不信都沒所謂啦。所以，邏輯上相信比不相信較為好。」作者也想藉此表達他對基督教抱有希望的態度，並以此段落作為印證。

(9). 「沾光」其實是作者希望透過不同方法去瞭解事物的真相，文中用到科學探索，哲學分析，宗教信仰的例子去確立自己也是這些下過苦功的偉人的後代，是其繼承者，所以也有資格說自己也是踏出了一條找尋事物的道路來，不同的是，此路以有人走過，所以作者便走得比較輕鬆了。是以他幽默地說是一條「便宜蹊」。

(10). 作者在此流露了思憶的情懷帶出他對於自己憤世嫉俗，嫉惡如仇的哥哥去世的慨歎，也希望著此機會和他在冥冥中作出溝通，並繼承他無邊無際的求知慾。

(11). 作者悟出人生道理，感覺如沐春風，好比佛祖菩提樹下七七四十九日之覺悟，但仍警惕自己切勿沾沾自喜，以為以得大道，是以重返塵世，繼續吸食人間煙火。

(12). 作者心中說不得，讀者也只能萬分猜度，更添懸疑。作者曾說：「凡有菩薩念者，必有菩薩心，所以明白的人，自會明白，不明白的人，自不明白。」

(13)*. 為了保證能得永生，作者還是尊重基督教，以阿門作結，恰到好處地首尾呼應，以「通便」為題，關門作結，使前文後理，編排得宜，為一絕文也。

附加：喻體－隱喻：果實在很多文化裏帶有不同色彩，中國的花果往往反映文人雅士的氣節；牛頓手握蘋果容易使人聯想起西方科學的倡明革新和對通過科學追求真理的熱誠；禁果在基督教裏帶有邪惡的味道，人類因受不住誘惑而吃了這智慧之果實所以有了羞慚之心，繼以被逐出伊甸園。

*註：由於考評局感到「狗屁」和「通便」等一類用詞較為庸俗不雅，所以本教科書在新版中，「狗屁」 和「通便」將不被列入閱讀範圍內。

後記：自己替自己寫精讀也挺好玩的，如果有精讀研究精讀也會蠻有趣的吧。

創作純粹無聊，故事如有雷同，實屬巧合，本作者保留一切法律追究權力。

Things you don't often hear over lunch in hkg

Overheard at mosque kitchen during lunch. This Iranian man was angry, more frustrated really, with how the mass media of the west and governments protray middle east like a chaotic terrorist breeding ground. "if you go to middle east, our families are just like any family. We don't talk about democracy, we just want jobs. We have social problems just like Edinburgh have social problems. They trained the terrorist in the first place, they wanted to show the world they have power, that's when you had soviet union. We don't want to bomb Israel, we don't care about Israel, we just want to feed our family and have a happy family...." really wanted to give that old man a hug. What can you do? What can you really do? If god was right at least we end up in the same place, if god is wrong, guess we'll also end up in the same place. So keep your prayers old man, don't lose faith.

等考試的歌

呆等 感覺被我斷送
縱使看不清所愛面容
仍未敢伸出我手觸碰
逃避你 卻又期待我可跟你做情人
而用情的心可天昏地暗
逃避你 愛是遙又遠得很
而我始終不敢靠近
還是不相信能和你合襯

至於為何沒有記憶力的我挑選了藝術歷史和建築歷史這兩科，只好慨嘆「愛上你是我眼睛的錯」。希望改我卷的老外不會吐血身亡，可惜他是蘇格籣人，不然也可以說是報了一點鴉片戰爭之仇。

通便有點

以有涯隨無涯，不就是人生嗎？
但原來殆已非也。
桃李無言，下自成蹊，原來是在比喻宇宙跟人生呢！
「隨」是因，「蹊」是果，「桃李」是終極的果。
呼天搶地，吟詩作對，狗屁一通的人類就是緣。
牛頓有的果，我沒有，可以算有嗎？
或者別人手握禁果，我也可沾祂一點光，
說我也有看過人手握禁果的，如果是真的，要讓我一點樂土啊。
不然，誰也說不準誰握過甚麼東西呢？
好，我就走沾光的便宜蹊，
學我哥呼天地叫嚷一番：「你吹我唔脹！」
呀~ 真舒暢，但還是有點。。。
但人總是要吃生果，沒辦法，只好當消化是樂趣。
還好，男人的。。。不說了，應承了別人不說就是不說，
反正觀自在菩薩，
阿門。

JC all over again

Funny how I lost touch with my music, anyways, here it goes again.

Mixtape
I'll make you mixtape that's a blueprint of my soul
It may sound grand but babe it's all you need to know
I'll make you a mixtape that will charm you into bed
It details everything that's running round my head

and some of his great live performances.

Reminder of the day

It's the questions, not the answers, stupid.

三省

一。小慾知足
二。 施比受更為有福
3. Don't test your love on your love, cause one day you might fail the test.

無題

月如有時，在雲無定。
玄方神往，善恩童老。

Grown up (?) thoughts

Overheard at male swimming pool changing room...
".... you have to do some today, do some tomorrow, at the beginning, it doesn't feel that good, but eventually it will come...."

turns out they were musicians talking about composing and playing the organ, although I would happily apply that to other areas in life, especially one that of chasing stars (amongst many other things, obviously.)

One something a day, keeps the doctor away.
Unless that Doc has Wong as his last name, in which case, you'll be asking for trouble.

For the sake of reminding myself

http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/education-12935895

兩袖清風
還我一點青春
既然浪漫於文字
便在黑與白之間隨意飄盪
忘我的起舞

Once

For you, my accomplice, if this is any consolation.
For she was once a true love of mine

I'd like to think
maybe a dream is the reality of a parallel universe
how friendly faces mingle in familiar places
what was is now lost and found in many will bes

A collection of discontinuations, as connected as our wandering thoughts allow us to be.

Notes dripping off the piano
cats plucking on the guitar
there you were
sands lingering on your hair
your lips a pink not too cherry ripe yet
the kiss, soft and uplifting
before spreading its wings
was found out
found out what could have and never became

I (We?) continue to wonder

But faith still exists. It is unthinkable that millions of people, entirely enslaved to materialism, live from day to day without knowing the purpose of their existence. In every human breast there must live that quality that elevates the individual above temporal concerns and enables him to feel a communion with his contemporaries, his nation, with all mankind and with the entire world. Where is it? Is it melting away too, or is there something, something new that is flowing into all mankind and waiting for its resurrection, its radiant transfiguration and crystalization in magnificent works of building? Without religion there is no true culture, no art. And should we, divided into isolated currents, simply vegetate, without creating for ourselves the true beauty of life?

----- Bruno Taut, The City Crown, 1919

Or maybe it's not about wondering, it's about acting.

騰飛不忘黨中央
高瑛回憶當自己表示對艾未未的安危擔憂時，艾未未曾回答，「生命的價值是什麼啊，媽媽你應該知道啊，就是應該幹點好事嘛，如果大家都不發出點東西來，像腐 敗就會愈來愈厲害，像上海的大樓（指11．15大火），如果你不做，還會出現，如果大家都是這樣子看見了卻不說，明哲保身，那麼這個國家和社會還怎麼向前 走？」

慚愧，慚愧。

擁有愈多，害怕失去愈多。
但可能，最可怕的是害怕，並不是失去。

有和沒有是宇宙的始與末，並不由你決定。
過程是唯一一樣人類每一天踏出來，
告訴自己曾經存在過的證據。

存在過 ，已經足夠了嗎？

And you could have it all my empire of dirt

近來在想做人的問題。

作為一個半中半英的香港人，上課是英文，思路是廣東話，只好用僅剩的中國文化去用拼音把胡思亂想的一堆記下。

不太暸解Human這個字的出處，但只看這個「人」字，就不簡單。

這個「人」字要寫到頂天立地，真絕不容易。更何怳要隨心之所欲，而且每一筆都絕無反悔？

想來，要達到這境界，不是出家，就是往書裡面轉。

可能我們永遠都是朝一個方向，目標，理想進發，縱使烏托邦找不到，但那路還是會留下腳印，然後回首看看落足的每一點。那就是希望了吧？
信望愛，也不無道理。

瘂弦說：「人生如飛鳥掠空，其佔有的空間就是放棄的空間，應該珍惜的，或許是從佔有到放棄的過程。真正的智者，是對一切過程無怨無悔的人。」

我在看自己的人生，宇宙不也是在看宇宙的自己嗎？
物我，前塵，今生，未來，原來都不是一樣的嗎？

究竟我們往前踏出了幾大步？還是一切都是本來就沒有方向呢？

愛恩斯坦跟他同僚苦思量子物理學的難題不果，同僚問愛恩斯坦：「你真的確信如果沒有人看月亮，它會不存在？」愛答：「你可以為你的說法提出反論證嗎？」

佛跟量子物理學那種微塵的自我感知力，真有點不謀而合呢。
或者現實真的就是我思故我在，但冥冥中又自有主宰。

送上Johnny Cash 翻唱 Nine Inch Nails的Hurt
他女兒受訪時憶起她爸讓她第一次看這個MV，看畢跟她爸說, 'But Dad, it's so sad, it sounds like you are saying goodbye'. 他爸有點詫異女兒有這個反應，說，'But I am'.

MV裡的Johnny跟屋子都不在了。

人已仙去，屋也在一場火災燒掉了。

很美，很傷心，很真，很動聽。
對，很真。

感動

本來嘛，也不用說很多。
妳教我「乜」
我教妳「乜」
會是一世嗎？


加油。

W thoughts 1

Weird, wild, wet, warm thoughts one,
I'm sure there's more to come.
(rhyme not intended)

I couldn't help thinking, with all the dreams I've had lately, what would other beings dream of? Say an animal, then what about a robot? With the conflicting definition there is as to what a robot is, I wanted to find something more applicable and understood by all.
They say Google will be the next AI and we all know what Google is and how it works (no, not in programming terms)


So here's my question.
What would Google dream of?

Have you been dreaming in a dream lately?

Have been having a lot of weird dreams lately. This dream had layers so it was very hard for me to go through the scenes by sequence. I'll see where the words will bring me.

...there you were and there I was. We both knew there was something between us, but we couldn't, the room was too crowded and there was no room left for me and you. I did still, move towards you, which meant I had to sadly maneuver myself around other tables and found myself sidelined on the one seat that was left hovering at the margins of the crowd.

What remained of that night remains unclear, I was so drunk, I do not recall how or with whom I left with and how I got home. The only thought left was that I had promised my dad to make a movie at 11am. He would hold the camera and I would direct. Was it this morning or the next? I kept asking myself. It was an important movie, a remake of a scene that would be the difference between life and death for me. Because somebody wanted to kill us and I had to recreate the scene of his plot against us all.

As I try to swirl my thoughts into the scene of us meeting in the dark, things become entangled. Me sitting here on the sofa of a warming Scotland morning, me, in the dream knowing that the 11am filming moment was important and the me, in the dream recalling the dream where I witnessed the menacing scene where we all felt his presence, froze in the dark, held our breathe and let him pass...

It's too late now, I cannot logically relate the dream in the dream in this current state of mind. My thoughts in the awaking state is becoming all too strong and it is skewing the realities of the dream.

Remembering a dream is a futile business, it didn't happen and it did. But then what about a movie? Did it happen or did it not? is life not the same? If I relied on myself to claim that I existed, I am sure to be doomed. I live on because of the thoughts of others. And humanity is but a collection of all such thoughts put together.

Dreamt

Typing this feels more like there's a voice calling through me rather than from me. It feels really weird, like I am simply writing down what is directed to me rather than what I am thinking. I guess I know how the apostles felt when the word of God went through their bodies.

Weirdest dream ever, was back in high school days, and it was music lesson, more like exam for music lesson. We had to each select  a song that we liked and sing it and we would be scored accordingly.
I remember thinking in my head, but that would be unfair to those who can't sing properly or don't have a good voice. Well, too late, we have already begun moving the chairs around so that we said according to the class number assigned to us.

For some reason, Simon, my best mate, was sitting to the right of me and he sang some corny love song dedicated to his girlfriend. And we all cheered, despite expecting the obvious.

When it was my turn, I hesitated for a while, uncertain of what I was going to sing, unprepared for the occasion. And then I said, 'This song is dedicated to my generation and I hope future generations will not have to sing it anymore'.

There was even a screen that got pulled up at the blackboard and a youtube website was on stand by. But there was a delay in the prologue of the song, so I began with improvisation. Lengthening the words sung so that the lyrics could appear on the screen so that my fellow man could sing along with me.

As I prolonged each word to delay the entry of the song being played on screen, I really had to sing till I was out of breathe for each sentence. And that made my lungs collapse, my body shaking, each in take of air overwhelmed and tearful because my body was pushed to the limit.

I can remember myself singing and crying in the dream.

Imagine there's no heaven, not a thing to worry*
Imagine all the people, nobody dying
Imagine all the children, without any hunger

And then came the real thing, the whole class singing in unison, there would be instances where a student with musical talents would rise above the surface of the masses and perform in his particular gifted way. In the organised classroom of desk and chairs, there was a rising and falling of people taking their turn to lead the crowd to sing the way the music moved them. Improvisation and order, order and improvisation, constant was the shift.

As I sit here, 7.33am in the morning, reaching my arms into the depths of the receding dream, I try but fail to recall how the song came to an end.

Perhaps we are still singing it.
Yes, we are singing it.
I can hear the echoes from a dream.

*the lyrics were changed as I sang, because I knew the anticipation in the crowd and did not want them to repeat what they heard only seconds before.

無題

不暍咖啡的我，因為冷的關係，受不了那微弱燈光下一蔞寂煙的誘惑，混著一大堆的巧克力把現在失眠的源頭吞進肚子裡。

想了蠻多的東西，想念了很少的人。可能因為念的不是人，是幾個畫面，一連串留不住的影像，像那一絲又一絲毫不留情而遠去的煙，卻又不斷地被那確實燃燒過的微溫，扭曲的重聚在一起。

總是甜甜的妳，看到那蔞煙，還會暍下去嗎？