Friday 28 August 2009

左右互搏系列一

左右互搏系列一

在西北的旅途上聽了劉若英的《後來》很多遍。

很想為我的過去道歉,傷了她人的心。

我不能說我沒有任何的後悔,但更甚的或許是說不出的懷念。

年少時,很多的東西都沒想透,也說不清。

現在可以做的就是默默送上祝福,希望遠方的妳想起的是年少無知時那天真的臉孔。

我,會繼續天真下去的。

俗語有云:真小人,偽君子。

用現代的話講,《公主復仇記》裏面有說:男人有兩種,一種是仆街,一種是扮皇子的仆街。

而我就這樣輕描淡寫的原諒了自己。

二零零九年八月二十七號甘肅路上

左右互搏系列

左右互搏系列

人越大,腦筋痴了越多線,發現自己的衣服和世界一樣不只是黑和白。

左腦的理智跟右腦的浪漫常常打仗,心裏面也找不到一個肯定的答案,沒有答案的問題像搞研究一樣,一篇論文嘗試回答問題後卻往往在結尾提出更多的問題。從而產生更多更多更多的問題。

左右互搏系列裡想寫的可能是一些毋寧兩何的事情,也可以是自我瞭解,自我反省的過程,更有可能的是自打嘴巴的文章。

講到底,只是找一個藉口,為自己的胡說八道,留下一點點胡思亂想的記憶。


Tuesday 18 August 2009

Thoughts before another journey

Familiar streets dotted with fading memories,
revisiting songs forgotten,
trying to put a chapter to end old stories but find no appropriate words to start anew.

I'm not ready to leave, but here I go again.

Friday 14 August 2009

游水隨想

可以做一條無憂無求的小精蟲,也可以做一個忽忽痕的屎撈人。
路是人走出來的,屎是自己踩的。
狗屎路有一天都會變彩虹。

Monday 3 August 2009

Unintentional Time Capsule

I just came back from a foreign land,

from a rice field with contemporary art to a city without much, if any, public art;
found myself sleeping in my old bed but in a new home;
had my first ever all nighter karaoke in Hong Kong with new friends right after a class reunion of seventy something friends I've known for more than 10 years;

I'm now sitting in front of a new room with the same monitor, same table, same chair, same keyboard, same speaker, same mouse, same standing light, but new room with finishings I have never seen in my life.

New height, new orientation, cars and birds singing from behind my head instead of to my right. Light penetrating from unfamiliar angles onto a furniture I've seen for 10 years but now seems all too alien.

People are prepared to get lost when they travel to new places, I was not prepared for myself to get lost in my own home.

As I continue to stumble around in this thing called 'home', I found a green ipod mini from 5 years ago and is once again trapped in a world of alien familiarity, of a reconstructed memory of long gone times, flashes of people who have stayed and who have gone.

A new Bose headphones that was lent and returned plugged into an old green ipod mini that was lost and found.

Please don't ask me what happened in that foriegn land, I am still living in one.